the nightmare (of getting married)

How embarassing! I woke up from a vampire nightmare around 5:15 am. Got up, walked around (to make sure there were none hiding!), grabbed some water and went back to bed. Woke up again around 7 from another nightmare--- AB was going to propose!
Now, that shouldn't be a nightmare...that should be a reason to celebrate. Its something I hope for everyday....and something I hope to one day experience. In my dream, we were in some kind of mall, and he had gotten a flyer of some sort from a jeweler. He said we needed to talk, and I saw a glimpse of the flyer---which was full of pictures of different engagement rings...and I ran!
I ran to find my mom and tell her. I was scared he wanted me to pick out my own ring (I don't want to, thats his job and he has great taste!). I was scared I wasn't ready. After I found my mom, we got lost. Then, I went to a small kiosk looking for a girly product, but I had no money, so I stole it! It didn't make any sense, but I woke up just as scared as the vampire nightmare. The only good thing about the vampire nightmare -- I know I stabbed one of them and they turned to dust. I also had a sword in my hand and waved it around violently and expertly, in my opionion.

Am I scared AB might be ready? Am I not?? He already told me one day we could have a dog...I know he is coming around to that, but....whats wrong with me???

Maybe taping some lipstick samples to some catalogs will help me ease my mind. Yes, the catalogs I put out at the grocery stores have samples. I think samples are the best way to get new customers.

Don't let her become one

Bridezillas. I never thought I would see one in person. Unfortunately, I have it one step further: I am watching my sister metamorphis into one. Its an ugly sight.
I think there is still hope, I am praying there is still hope.
I love her so much, but its all she talks about and thinks about. Her wedding. Her wedding is in October. Nine months away. Now, call me silly, but some people are pregnant for 9 months, but they might not know it until the second or third month. If it was a lovely accident, thats only 7 or 8 months to plan a life. When the mom and dad to be go to birthing class, they don't learn about just labor...they learn about nutrition, healthy habits during and after the pregnancy, what to expect during labor, how to breast feed, it just goes on and on. Now, in a sense, sister is planning a life...a lifelong marriage. Interestingly enough, she has not talked about being married....only the wedding day. When you have a child, you don't just talk about the birthing day...for all nine months. You talk about feeding, raising, daily ins and outs, everything!!

Yesterday, it was the limo. She needs to give the limo service (she hasn't picked one yet) an itenary of the big day, but she hasn't decided on a time to have the actual wedding service yet! She also expects us to get a ride from someone to the salon to get our hair done, and she wants the limo to pick us up from there...to go back to my house. But, first, we all need to get rides to the salon. Someone has to drop us off to get our hair "did". Its so confusing and doesn't make a lick of sense to me. I am not married, so yep, your right. I don't know.
I do know that a wedding is one day. A marriage is hopefully forever. Focus on the marriage.